Well today was not a good day for food... oh well... actually it hasn't been the greatest of weeks and I am glad that it is all over. I started well with a spin in the am on both Monday and Friday - but many things just deteriorated from there... I think I am going to make some bread tonight...
This hasn't discouraged me from just doing better - today is just that day when it just didn't happen for me. The day started out great with a great spin in the morning - but I didn't keep it up with the food. Why is my biggest downfall always the food!!!! Oh well... tomorrow is another day and I can only do better from this point forward. I've already beat myself up about it enough today I just need to move on.
Yesterday my TA (who is Filipina) told me I was getting fat. I told her straight out that you just don't say that to people (who you are not on close terms with). She laughed more to hide her embarrassment but it totally didn't help the situation. Yes, the weight or the look thing is really bugging me - but it is also the healthy lifestyle is too. I just don't feel healthy mentally and physically. And I just want to get over that hump to be there! Where is the magic button!?!?!?
Well for one, it is regular exercise - not just lip service exercise but intense exercise. That will help lots. Two it is food - food that I like that is healthy. I've been pretty good at eliminating a lot of carbs and portion control but I haven't gotten rid of it completely. But I am better at not choosing to eat pasta, bread or noodles... and if they creep in there then it is a controlled portion of food.
So still some progress but there needs to be more. Hard deadlines don't really work for me, but I need to make some commitments to things so that I can make it work for myself. I've made two today and that should help...
Wednesdays after school I will be spinning or doing a TRX workout with a colleague/friend of mine. That will help with getting me in a routine.
Fridays - during our planning time is a workout with the same colleague/friend. We got to get something done or else Fridays will be a total write off...
Any morning earlier in the week I am going to spin - so I don't have to worry about doing it after school - more family time...
Food - going to get some meals cooked and frozen ahead of time so that that frees up some of the prep at home. But more veg and fresh fruit needs to be consumed. I need to look at my breakfast options again. Scrambled eggs are great but I don't know if it is helping. Maybe I should limit it to 3 times a week. On days when I work out first it should probably be fruits and veg...
Like they said, it is all about the food... but I need to get my head space in ship shape. Work is a little stressful because I want to switch positions. It should be pretty straight forward but who knows... I don't hold the cards and those that do keep it close to their chest... I looked at photos from the past 10 years and I was thinking that there needs to be a way to get back to being carefree. I am sure you can be even with two kids under the age of 5... but there has to be a way back to that life. Yes things can be stressful, but it's all perspective...
Hmmmm... I will find a way. Even through my disjointed and random thoughts of this post I am sure I will find a way...
Thursday, November 6, 2014
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Spinning my wheels...
So I have managed a work week with mostly no carbs... I say mostly because the evenings have been a little harder to avoid them, but during the day it has been good.
I start most mornings off with scrambled eggs and some fruit. I've also ditched my beloved non-fat latte for Earl Grey Tea (thanks Captain Picard) so that has helped some. Lunch is a little big... some sort of meat with cooked vegetables if I know that I am going to make salad for dinner, if not it would be a salad at lunch if I know I might have something I shouldn't at dinner.
The week has been good with salad and meat for dinner. One night we did go out for pizza because I needed to get new running shoes. I was quite proud of myself for just having one piece of the pan crust pizza. I enjoyed every bite of that fried goodness. We did have a salad with that too - so that helped. What didn't was the sweetened ice tea that went with it. I think the standard drink will have to be soda water from now on to get rid of the sugar content.
Another night I did make tortellini for dinner - it was spinach and cheese tortellini with tomato sauce. I didn't have other kinds of beans besides cannelli beans so making a bean salad was out of the question. But I did limit myself to just one scoop of tortellini which was about half a cup. So in a way that has made me happy that I was able to control my portion size and not eat heaps and heaps of food especially carbs.
Working out has been good. I've subscribed to Realfit.tv so that I can spin to all those awesome cycling videos that Dana Lee (the instructor) puts up there. She also had a 30 minute TRX workout which was awesome and totally left me sore in all my muscle groups. I figure if I can spin 3 times a week, to a TRX work out and a yoga each week and something extra on the weekends that would be great. I like walking but I am finding that it is not heart rate pumping enough for me. I like the feel of exhaustion at the end of a work out. But I should endeavor to walk more to and from work, especially when the weather gets cooler. Right now it is just hot and humid.
So I think it has been a good first week of me trying to get myself back in gear... I have to admit that this is a bit of a blah post... but honestly that is how I feel... I guess it comes from a couple of things like frustration, lack of sleep and impatience to get a fit body back. I was looking at that appetite suppression pill that is all the rage - Garcinia Cambogia - and it's success story with so many people. The before and after photos of so many people makes you think that this might actually work. But really - I tend to be skeptical when it comes to something like this... how can one little pill actually work. It says it is because it supresses your appetite while still burning fat... hmmm I don't know. However for 20 bucks I'm willing to try it... of course if I lived in the US it would be easy - but I live in Thailand. Chances of me finding that product here in Thailand - I don't know. There is another one that is supposed to help cleans your colon too... so in combination of the two it should help you lose 15 lbs in one month!
I have to say for someone who is feeling a little low and weak minded about this at the moment it is appealing. However, I don't want to waste huge amounts of time and money trying to get that product in my hot little hands... I think that if I were to come across it at some point in my shopping travels maybe I'll try it out - but for now I should stick with the course of eating better and exercise. Those always work 100%.
I start most mornings off with scrambled eggs and some fruit. I've also ditched my beloved non-fat latte for Earl Grey Tea (thanks Captain Picard) so that has helped some. Lunch is a little big... some sort of meat with cooked vegetables if I know that I am going to make salad for dinner, if not it would be a salad at lunch if I know I might have something I shouldn't at dinner.
The week has been good with salad and meat for dinner. One night we did go out for pizza because I needed to get new running shoes. I was quite proud of myself for just having one piece of the pan crust pizza. I enjoyed every bite of that fried goodness. We did have a salad with that too - so that helped. What didn't was the sweetened ice tea that went with it. I think the standard drink will have to be soda water from now on to get rid of the sugar content.
Another night I did make tortellini for dinner - it was spinach and cheese tortellini with tomato sauce. I didn't have other kinds of beans besides cannelli beans so making a bean salad was out of the question. But I did limit myself to just one scoop of tortellini which was about half a cup. So in a way that has made me happy that I was able to control my portion size and not eat heaps and heaps of food especially carbs.
Working out has been good. I've subscribed to Realfit.tv so that I can spin to all those awesome cycling videos that Dana Lee (the instructor) puts up there. She also had a 30 minute TRX workout which was awesome and totally left me sore in all my muscle groups. I figure if I can spin 3 times a week, to a TRX work out and a yoga each week and something extra on the weekends that would be great. I like walking but I am finding that it is not heart rate pumping enough for me. I like the feel of exhaustion at the end of a work out. But I should endeavor to walk more to and from work, especially when the weather gets cooler. Right now it is just hot and humid.
So I think it has been a good first week of me trying to get myself back in gear... I have to admit that this is a bit of a blah post... but honestly that is how I feel... I guess it comes from a couple of things like frustration, lack of sleep and impatience to get a fit body back. I was looking at that appetite suppression pill that is all the rage - Garcinia Cambogia - and it's success story with so many people. The before and after photos of so many people makes you think that this might actually work. But really - I tend to be skeptical when it comes to something like this... how can one little pill actually work. It says it is because it supresses your appetite while still burning fat... hmmm I don't know. However for 20 bucks I'm willing to try it... of course if I lived in the US it would be easy - but I live in Thailand. Chances of me finding that product here in Thailand - I don't know. There is another one that is supposed to help cleans your colon too... so in combination of the two it should help you lose 15 lbs in one month!
I have to say for someone who is feeling a little low and weak minded about this at the moment it is appealing. However, I don't want to waste huge amounts of time and money trying to get that product in my hot little hands... I think that if I were to come across it at some point in my shopping travels maybe I'll try it out - but for now I should stick with the course of eating better and exercise. Those always work 100%.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Revealations... beachside...
Ok it's been a while... lots has happened and just looking at my last post, I obvi out did not keep with my goals... so I guess I will need to make new ones, modust ones, and start with a sjoshorter time period...
It's funny what you think about when at a beach destination place like Phuket. People come here from all over the world just to hang it all out there on the beach. This can do some serious damage to a 5 month post pregnancy body like mine... when am I going to find the time to get fit again with two minions under the age of 5 in my house? But I have the time! I am lucky that I have help... a wonderful lady, though maybe not the sharpest knife in the drawer is still someone that cares and loves my children. She's more than happy to play with them the extra hour so that I can exercise pretty much everyday.
So what's my problem? The same thing as always... imaptience, and food! I want results and I want them now! Why do I have to work so hard to get results... why can't I get results right away, then make me keep that up to maintain it! It isn't that I don't like the exercise, but when you don't feel great in the first place then it is harder to get back in the game. Like I said to my bootcamp instructor "I'm not fit enough to figure it out myself..."
But as always with me, it is the food... I eat crap... all the time. I may have cut back on the grease, but it's the carbs that are killing me and the significant lack of fruits and vegetables. Even now I am writing this on my tablet (hence my lack of fluency of writing) it is sitting on a very large belly, which makes me look like I am still pregnant! Ugh! However finally my body has said enough is enough and right now I feel quite I'll to my stomach... too many croissants, cheeses, bacon at breakfast... , you body just can't do it anymore, and I don't have an excuse. If I don't get my shit together I never will...
There are other things of course...but that can be saved for another day... but maybe those will either get dealt with or will be easier to deal with once I sort out my healt... jo Estes if I can't figure that out, everything else is secondary... I ant be a good mom, wife/girlfriend, sister, daughter, aunt, colleauge, friend if I am not happy with how I am right now...
So here we go to getting back in gear...
Task 1: Eat more fruits and veg, and MUCI less carbs... hopefully none...
Task 2: Yoga yoga yoga... with some spinning inbetween... I would say walk/run, but let need a new pair of runners and my time frame is for the next 10 weeks...
Task 3: blog it all... I'm not always communicating what is going on... so if I know I have to write it, maybe I need to talk to some people first about what I am feeling... it might be important to them and our relationship...
So let's how we go until our Winter break... that might be too long, let's say the next 4 weeks...
It's funny what you think about when at a beach destination place like Phuket. People come here from all over the world just to hang it all out there on the beach. This can do some serious damage to a 5 month post pregnancy body like mine... when am I going to find the time to get fit again with two minions under the age of 5 in my house? But I have the time! I am lucky that I have help... a wonderful lady, though maybe not the sharpest knife in the drawer is still someone that cares and loves my children. She's more than happy to play with them the extra hour so that I can exercise pretty much everyday.
So what's my problem? The same thing as always... imaptience, and food! I want results and I want them now! Why do I have to work so hard to get results... why can't I get results right away, then make me keep that up to maintain it! It isn't that I don't like the exercise, but when you don't feel great in the first place then it is harder to get back in the game. Like I said to my bootcamp instructor "I'm not fit enough to figure it out myself..."
But as always with me, it is the food... I eat crap... all the time. I may have cut back on the grease, but it's the carbs that are killing me and the significant lack of fruits and vegetables. Even now I am writing this on my tablet (hence my lack of fluency of writing) it is sitting on a very large belly, which makes me look like I am still pregnant! Ugh! However finally my body has said enough is enough and right now I feel quite I'll to my stomach... too many croissants, cheeses, bacon at breakfast... , you body just can't do it anymore, and I don't have an excuse. If I don't get my shit together I never will...
There are other things of course...but that can be saved for another day... but maybe those will either get dealt with or will be easier to deal with once I sort out my healt... jo Estes if I can't figure that out, everything else is secondary... I ant be a good mom, wife/girlfriend, sister, daughter, aunt, colleauge, friend if I am not happy with how I am right now...
So here we go to getting back in gear...
Task 1: Eat more fruits and veg, and MUCI less carbs... hopefully none...
Task 2: Yoga yoga yoga... with some spinning inbetween... I would say walk/run, but let need a new pair of runners and my time frame is for the next 10 weeks...
Task 3: blog it all... I'm not always communicating what is going on... so if I know I have to write it, maybe I need to talk to some people first about what I am feeling... it might be important to them and our relationship...
So let's how we go until our Winter break... that might be too long, let's say the next 4 weeks...
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